Post-fieldwork note 1

The 8-month fieldwork in Ambon has taught me the deepest value of life.

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I came there with ambitious plans to learn, to do research, to finish my PhD, to get that dmn Dr. title, in short, to just get things done, fast, well planned, perfectly.

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If you follow throughout my journey in Ambon, since the beginning of it, you might have seen how I seemed to struggle to understand my own research idea, the setting, the problems, the novelty, the methodology, the adapting to a new place knowing only a few people, the (tirelessly) meeting new people on a daily basis to answer the same old questions “so what is your research about? Why pasar tradisional? Is pasar interesting to research about, oh really? Pasar is just pasar, right? Or, so you got 10 scholarships, how did you do that? Aren’t you tired of studying? Why would you pursue PhD? Isn’t a master’s degree enough? Or, other personal questions.” when deep inside you actually have no firm answer to any of the question, while you were also greatly doubting yourself or your decision and wanted to ask the exact same questions to yourself, for the thousand times already. The ‘why, Bel?’. [to be continued]

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Go travel!

[Amsterdam] kind of missing the feeling of not knowing what will happen afterwards. You might have to stay all night at an airpot, train station, bus station, or elsewhere with a roof on it. The thing is that, you eventually will never be alone, there will always be someone or some people who are gonna pity you as a complete stranger. Traveling pr backpacking alone will grow your faith on yourself and on others, how you see life’s dancing without fearing anything because you’ve been through and against the toughest feeling everyone is avoiding, loneliness, out of their comfort zone, and getting lost in a complete strange place where every bad thing will have their own reasons to just happen. Yet above all, this picture says obviously how she is struggling in taking selfies. A Tongsing might be of a very useful tool for her, ya? #laventuregrams

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New Year’s Eve in Tilburg

[Tilburg] #throwbacksaturday After having a lot of considerations, we decided then to stay “cool” on New Year’s eve 2014 while celebrating the night in our beloved city, Tilburg. At 10:30 pm I went to my friend’s room (one of these guys’ room) to at least be with someone on the 5 seconds count down moment. So watching movie it was. Around 5 minutes before midnight, we were kind of desperate assuming that we were going to sip our cup of tea, and let the moment go, just like that. But wait, not that lame guys! At 00.00 we started to hear some “jeger” sounds everywhere around our apartments. Then we went outside, and it was fireworks from every corner of the city. 5 minutes. Excited, wow, Happy New Year! Camera on, video on. Path, Instagram, Facebook, Twitter, updated! 10 minutes. It took quite long time. Nice view, right? Look! Overthere! 15 minutes. Good. How much money did they spend to buy them? 20 minutes. It was cold. 30 minutes. Kept still? 45 minutes. Let’s get inside guys. 50 minutes. No one was still outside. Happy New Year, anyway.

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Back to the capital!

[Amsterdam] Hi Instagram! Who’s down to explore the capital city of the Kingdom of the Netherlands? (Holland, your official name, why so long?) Up to the Northern part of the Netherlands, it was the first city that had painted perfectly what “the Netherlands” image was supposed to be (to me). The buildings, architecture, the weather, canals, street, no, not the language. You’ll hardly hear Dutch on the street, cause these “bsjdbdbjxjnelwkejnwn” “oui c’est trop beau!” “Ich weiss nicht” “that’s pretty expensive” “como esta?” “Bonita!!” “Como se chama?” “Zhsjebdbndnfnf” “zhi shi… Wo yao..” are in the air, run in your blood, and get you crazy enough with the crowd. But this view is relaxing, isn’t it? Tea please, the Rooibos I prefer..

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My first exam!

[Tilburg Uni] As a Graduate student in humanities, I know that some will question what I actually do and study for my exams. Well, it is true that we don’t deal with econometrics, figures, formulas, maths, statistics and stuffs. However, that doesn’t make it seems easier to deal with. No! The exam will consist of 4 questions, each question will have 4 sub-questions, which simply means there will be 16 questions of 2-paragraph-minimum-argumentative answers. As the basis of the exam, we are obliged to be really familiar with 11 scientific articles in which there are more than 30 concepts in total. Memorizing 30 concepts is still due-able, but relating and opposing each of them in a specific case of study during the exam is…… another thing.

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Saariselkä? It’s Tilburg!

[Tilburg] one fine MORNING in Tilburg. Have you ever heard about Aurora Borelis or also commonly known as The Northern Lights? If you thought it was green, then NO, another one. I woke up yesterday at 8 and the sky was still sleepy, so to speak. Since my bed is just next to the window, so this was the first thing that spoiled my eyes. By then, I simply believe that the Netherlands has moved a bit………… to North pole. So, Saariselkä, does it mean you are seducing me to visit you?

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Chanel!

[Tilburg] amongst the Haute couture designers, Chanel is the one that worth being called as the “revolutioner”. When the others only sell super expensive goods, this brand sells story, effort, feminism, power relation, history, sacrifice, and luxury in a complet package. If you have no idea about what Coco Chanel did, I’ll let you to inquire about it on Wikipedia. To make long story short, Coco Chanel has contributed to the first feminism revolution in France and has liberated women from their heavy gowns, corsets, long hair, as well as has replaced the old common definition of beauty into “simplicity is the keynote of all true elegance.” Beauty is light, modest, black, and meanwhile severe!

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